Crucial

Uhm. Crucial stick works. Well, VMware has crashed twice on me...but that seems to behind us now.

I don't even know where to begin with poker. I have dropped 3 buyins with KK, 2 overpairs, one 2nd nut boat. Both the overpairs were versus AQ, both times a Queen fell. The quads hand, meh, I played the river badly. Should have shoved over the minraise for value, not raised and called another raise all-in. Pretty unsurprising my hand is no good after that action but I can't fold. I have dropped probably 2 buyins with flushdraws. Fortunately vmware crashed before I could bluff the river on the last one. It's crazy, crazy. Obviously now I'm playing a lot of hands preflop and extending my aggression postflop. However, the moment I have something, no action. Which is just frankly ridiculous. Yeah, great, I can raise a flop with 6-high and they fold/shove/call some of the time. Raise the same flop with a set, they fold all the time. Just to say I acknowledge one mistake I made when I turned top two with AQ. I checked the river to let him bluff his missed draw. He had bottom pair and checked it. But what happens if I shove top two there? He folds bottom pair, eh? He calls if he runner-runnered broadway or hit a set. He bluffs if he was on a draw. Fuck it, next time I valuebet/shove when I think villain has pair/draw and I can beat one pair, even if I think it loses value from missed draws.

So here's the thing. I understand that since I'm unused to it, my play in the small-medium 'loose' pots will be -EV. So I'm going to losing more than my fair share of steals, busted draws, multi-street bluffs, etc. OKAY, FINE. But then to loose every big hand too...or get no value from my big hands even though I'm playing like a freaking loony tune, is tilt inducing because I may as well be avoiding the -EV of the loose pots altogether with the way things are.

Whatever, 63% of Keeley porn done. That's the important thing.

Update: Had the audacity to mv some large files without scheduling them as batch/idle and system locked up...(well, it may have unlocked eventually but I'm impatient). Lost Rapidshare download, found it on usenet. No more waiting!